Fantasies of the Mind

Dear Mom
By: Raven Shepardson
March 14, 2023

Dear Mom
I know it has only been 7 months
But I truly want you to know 
That just because I don’t shed a tear on the outside
It doesn’t mean that I haven’t shed a million inside of me
It doesn’t me I don’t miss you everyday
It doesn’t mean I don’t care
Because I do
It doesn’t mean I don’t love you 
Because I do more than you will ever know
I know you are near me 
Even though you are not physically here
You are here in spirit and with me where ever I go
I smell scents that remind me of you day and night
When I am sleeping it wakes me up and I start looking for you
Sometimes I hear your voice at night talking 
I wish I could understand what you are saying to me
I’ve been lucky to have seen your silhouette and felt your touch
I just hope you know I want to be strong for our family
To be there for them
I feel that your strength flows through me and that is what will help us
I will always look to the sky and stars at night
To talk, scream, fall to my knees trying to understand why you had to leave
No matter which way I look at our situation I know it’s not fair
You never prepared us for this day
We only knew that you were supposed to be here
Just know I love you and miss you so much
Love Your Daughter Raven